Let’s Talk About Games!

Hey howdy hey, folks! It’s Eddie the Wolf here with yet another blog! This time I would like to talk about video games, just as the title says. lol

As many of you know by now that video games are my passion, and I’ve been playing them ever since the days of the Genesis and Super Nintendo. Seriously, those were the best years of gaming if you ask me. Anyway, I thought I’d share a few games that I’ve been playing recently. So here we go! :D

METAL GEAR SOLID: THE TWIN SNAKES (GameCube)

I don’t know why, but I had a strange urge to want to play this game. I’ve had it in my possession since my last trip to Puerto Rico. It didn’t really take me that long to finish it. True, I had a walkthrough on my laptop because I had a feeling that I would get frustrated with the game. Mostly because I don’t feel that I’m that great with stealth games as the first Splinter Cell has shown me how trial and error can get to you. Still, I clocked in around 11 hours of game time, and I admit that that was pretty short as I had expected the game to last longer than that.

For those that don’t know, The Twin Snakes is a revision of the original Metal Gear Solid on the PlayStation. If you were like me back when this came out, you were probably mislead to think that the game included both the first and second games. Although that isn’t the case, The Twin Snakes does included gameplay features from Sons of Liberty that makes the experience worthwhile. Even though I completely missed out on the PlayStation original, I don’t think I would have been able to have gone back to it after being spoiled by Metal Gear Solid 2’s gameplay, particularly switching from overhead camera to first person mode. The latter is definitely handy when trying to look at your surroundings and when you are aiming at your enemies.

I enjoyed the game immensely especially with the amount of research that went into nuclear weapons along with the history behind nuclear warfare that this game surrounds itself with. I did my best to follow with what was going on as far as the main story went, but even then there were a few things that I was fuzzy about especially after reading up on the game’s story via Wikipedia. Of course, I’ve been told that answers to some of my questions will come in later games, Guns of the Patriot in particular.

Still, I look forward to playing the other games in the series. :) Metal Gear Solid 2: Sons of Liberty will be next followed by Snake Eater and Peace Walker, all on the HD Collection on the PS3. – 8.5/10

HOTLINE MIAMI (Steam)

This is another game I recently finished just a few days after I completed The Twin Snakes. Unlike that game, I expected this one to be shorter considering that it’s an indie-developed game, and it was short. However, this is one of those action games that made me think back on fun action games like Contra and Gunstar Heroes, in which it’s easy to pick up and play yet hard to master. Hotline Miami executes that philosophy in a superb and bloody fun way. :)

Hotline Miami’s top-down style reminded me of seeing clips of Smash TV, and that didn’t bother me one bit surprisingly. I mean I had a feeling that I was in for a real treat when I first saw clips of this game with great reviews to back it up. Even though I died countless times, it was very rewarding as I progressed on with the game. The gameplay was what got me hooked throughout, and it made chuckle here and there with just how over-the-top the violence was.

The two major complaints I have is game’s story and AI. The story is obviously not the focus even though it does get into that cerebral territory without taking itself seriously. As for the AI, it’s not how tough they can be or how they seem to charge at you when you are out in the open. The game developers obviously made them to where you can figure out their movement patterns. The issue is mostly when the AI gets to where you are but suddenly seems to hesitate to attack you. I noticed this especially with the attack dogs when they charge at you, stand there and swivel around near your position, and then attack just when you think you are prepared to attack at that instance. At least that is what I experienced.

Other than that, Hotline Miami is quite the indie game that does the throwback retro theme rather well. If anything, the game’s soundtrack will make you want to jam in your car while driving a city at night. – 8.5/10

GAME DEV TYCOON (Steam)

It’s yet another indie game! Man, it does seem like I am gravitating towards these games lately. lol This one was quite a surprise even after seeing a trailer of it on Steam. As the title implies, Game Dev Tycoon is a tycoon game in which you are the boss of your very own video game company. You start off in the PC revolution era as you work your way through 35 years of video game history.

At the beginning, you are given very few game topics to create your games from. As you work your way through the game, you’ll discover what genre will work with what topics and what won’t along with what target audience your game is geared for and what system the genre/topic/audience will sell well on. It’s quite a deep tycoon game despite some of its limitations. As you progress through the years, your company will continue to grow as you hire new employees and develop your own game engine’s to make better games.

I’ve yet to finish a full game of it as I keep starting over just to see if I could hit a certain spot with the topics given to make my company more successful. However, I’ve had help from a few sources on how to successfully go about the game while trying out a few things on my own. Game Dev Tycoon is definitely one of those rare games that you’ll find yourself experimenting on what works and what doesn’t while being sucked in by the game’s simple yet slightly deep gameplay mechanics.

What I find fascinating is the liberties the developers took when making the game console artwork that almost resembles actual game consoles. If you get a chance to play it, you’ll know what I mean.

It’s not perfect by any means, and there is room for improvement considering that it’s the developer’s first game. Still, it’ll be interesting to see if they do decide to make a sequel or an expansion to Game Dev Tycoon! – 7/10

FINAL FANTASY VI ADVANCE (Game Boy Advance)

Ah, Final Fantasy VI. Yes, Final Fantasy VI. Oh glorious, Final Fantasy VI! In case this isn’t apparent, I’m actually having a blast with Final Fantasy VI. :) It’s considered to be one of the best, if not the best, Final Fantasy game in the series, and I can see why just by its story and characters alone!

I did play this game a long time ago, but I never got around to finishing it. So I started over, and I am now in the World of Ruin part of the game with Celes and Sabin in my party. I did meet and help Terra out though, but I was bummed that she couldn’t tag along after the boss fight. She is one of the coolest characters in the game, and one of the few female protagonists worth noting in any video game series. Another character worth noting is the game’s main villain. Kefka. While many Final Fantasy fans may consider FF VII’s Sephiroth to be the best, I’m putting my money on Kefka as one of the greatest villains ever created. Why? Well, you’ll just have to play the game to find out. =P No really, he does what just about every video game villain fails to do and does it without ever lifting off of the acceleration.

Some of you guys are probably wondering why did I start over on this game considering that I had around 12 hours of game time logged in. For one thing, this is one of those games that if you put it off for a long period of time (six to seven years for me) you’ll be lost with what’s going on and where you need to go. Another reason is that I loved the game’s opera scene, and I just wanted to experience it all over again. I have both a mini-guide from Nintendo Power plus a walkthrough from the Final Fantasy Worlds Apart website to help me get through the game without having to back track where I’ve been.

This is a game I know I’ll have to focus on when there is some down time on my end and when the TV isn’t being used by my roommate when playing on my PS3.

OTHER THINGS

I recently picked up Dead or Alive 5 Ultimate on the PS3 and gave it a spin. The game’s graphics do look gorgeous which is no surprise considering Team Ninja’s emphasis on the technical aspect with their games. I did try out the tutorial just for kicks, and I plan to work on it some more when I find time to play it.

With Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel coming out, I do plan to finish Borderlands 2’s main story before I get cracking on the DLC missions. I’ll try to do that while working on Tales of Phantasia, but that game will come once Final Fantasy VI is out of the way.

Oh yeah, how about the Steam and GOG sales? I managed to pick up some games during the summer sale event. I think my slightly disappointed pick up was getting The Last Express on Steam and not on GOG. Why? Mostly because I had assumed that the Steam version would have the game’s soundtrack included even though GOG listed it as a bonus when purchasing the game from their site. Seeing that Hotline Miami included their soundtrack in the game’s folders, I figured the same would happen with The Last Express. Nope. So I may pick up the GOG version just for the soundtrack alone. lol Yeah, I’m quite the consumer. XD

And before I forget, I think Ubisoft had the best show of E3 followed by Sony’s show. I choose Ubisoft because it had plenty of promising games shown off this year including Far Cry 4, Assassin’s Creed: Unity, and Tom Clancy’s The Division. If it weren’t for Sony’s hype kill in the middle of their presentation, I would have chosen them. I didn’t get to delve into the coverage as much as I would have liked to thanks to work, but that’s okay. I have too many games I need to get through to even get caught up, but I do my best to be in the know of the industry. :)

With that, I think this is a good stopping point. It’s 4am as of this typing, and I need my sleep. lol

So tell me, any good games that you guys have been playing? :) If so, what are they and are they worth recommending?

I hope you guys are enjoying your summer! I’m looking forward to my week off from work soon.

Take care and thanks for reading!

Eddie the Wolf signing off!

Independence Day Update: Star Wars Weekends, Program Extension, and more!

Hey howdy hey, folks!

As always, it’s been awhile. Yeah, I am really bad when it comes to updating frequently. It doesn’t help when you are busy though with work and class. Anyway, now is probably a good time to do an update despite how late this is. lol I have an evening shift on Independence Day, so I’ll be all right. :)

STAR WARS WEEKENDS

I got to experience my first Star Wars Weekends! =D I have to admit that it was a blast. True, it did become a bit tiresome trying to wake up early enough to catch the motorcades in the mid-mornings, but the experience overall was well worth it. I did take plenty of pictures and video of it though. So if you happen to have me as a friend on Facebook, be on the look out when I do post those pictures. As for the video, it’ll be awhile before I upload them onto my YouTube channel.

Most of you know how much of a Star Wars fan I am. :) Just being a part of it made me so alive as I got a chance to do character meet-and-greets with a few characters from the Star Wars universe including Disney’s own Mickey, Minnie, Donald, and Goofy as Star Wars characters. What was really cool was how I was able to talk to Luke Skywalker (the character, not the actor Mark Hamill) and just talk about things as if I were a part of that universe. So I’m hoping that next year I get to participate if I do stick around working at Hollywood Studios.

What really made the experience worth while was being able to see Star Wars celebrities from a distance during the motorcades such as Peter Mayhew (Chewbacca), Ray Park (Darth Maul), James Arnold Taylor (voice of Obi-Wan Kenobi of The Clone Wars series), Billy Dee Williams (Lando Calrissian), and Mark Hamill (Luke Skywalker).  My takeaway from the whole Star Wars Weekends was pin trading with Ray Park’s daughter when he and his family got off of the Toy Story Midway Mania ride. That’s something I will never forget for as long as I live. :)

PROGRAM EXTENSION

Just as this title says, I am happy to report that I’ve extended my college program through the beginning of January! :D I admit that I’ve enjoyed my time here so far despite some things that have happened to me since I’ve started working at Walt Disney World. So if you guys do decide to come by, hit me up! I’m always up for meeting people I’ve known online. Speaking of, there’s a very good friend of mine from Texas that their family will be staying at one of the resorts for a week this month! So I’ll be very excited to meet them. ^^ Going into that weekend, I plan to hit Megaplex for the first time! Even though I didn’t make it for Morphicon, it’ll be nice to go to a furry con this year. lol

OTHER THINGS

Outside of what I’ve just reported, I’ve managed to get back into playing some video games thanks to the recent summer sales that Steam and GOG.com have had. So it’s been a mixture of Hotline Miami, Game Dev Tycoon, Borderlands 2 and Final Fantasy VI Advance. As always it’s just a matter of making time to play all these games. lol

Thanks to Star Wars Weekends I did recently purchase a Star Wars book that was recommended by a friend. It’s called Heir to the Empire, and it’s a part of the Thrawn trilogy. So far, the book has some short chapters, and it’s a quick read compared to reading Stephen King’s The Stand. Speaking of which, I am probably a two-thirds of the way through the book. Once I finish it, that may be the only Stephen King book I’ll ever read. It’s a good book for the most part, and I can see why many readers enjoy his writing. For me, I think he just goes on and on about things that I think don’t really add much to the story, but I’m still chugging along in hopes of finishing it. My goal is to finish it before the purchase day a year ago in September. Once that book is done, I plan to finish up World War Z before jumping into The Road while working through Heir to the Empire. Now that I think about it, I do have that Bioshock book I need to continue reading…

I did go out to the movies to see Godzilla. I must say that it makes the 1998 movie non-existent. lol Even though it was a very good movie, I would like to have seen more action scenes and just a bit more of Bryan Cranston (Breaking Bad). Otherwise, I highly recommend watching it if you guys already haven’t. Other movies that are out I would like to see are X-Men: Days of Future Past and How To Train Your Dragon 2. There is one documentary that will be release in select theatres is Life Itself which focuses on the late film critic, Roger Ebert. This trailer makes it all the more reason for me to see it.

It’s unfortunate that the theatre here won’t be showing it. I know I’ll get to see it even if it means waiting for the movie to come on DVD. lol

As for drawing, the motivation comes and goes. I miss drawing… I really need to get back into it more often or else I fear that I’ll lose my touch on drawing in general. ^^; What really kills me is just how much I focus over the littlest of things when drawing. I should learn to make more mistakes and draw lightly. I’ve been told that it helps to look up references, and it’s time that I do so if I want to get my anatomy and proportions to look well on the sketch page. So, we shall see what will come from it if I decide to go that route.

Hmm… 3:47 am as of this typing. Well, I think this is a good time for me to stop right here and wish my fellow Americans a great Independence Day weekend. :) Any of you guys doing anything special?

Anyway, I hope you guys are doing well, and I thank you all for taking the time to read what I have to post. :)

Take care and I’ll catch you all next time!

Eddie the Wolf signing off!

Without A Car…

Hey guys.

This is going to be a rather quick update while I think about it.

At this time, I lack a car. Why is that, you ask? My sister borrowed my car a couple of days ago to move out from the housing complex she stayed at during her Disney Program. As she tried to make her way to the Tampa Bay area, she ended up getting stranded on I-4. From what my mom had told me at the time, the car had overheated. We went under the assumption that it was because either the weather being hot, I haven’t used the car much to drive more than ten miles away from my complex, or the water pump broke. So my sister had to wait on a few relatives of ours to get her and see about what happened with the car.

The next day I give my mom a call to ask how my sister was doing which lead into the discussion on what had happened. It turns out that the water pump did break. A tow truck had arrived to help jump start the car. After she drove it some more, the car’s engine gave out. So the car was taken to a shop in which the mechanic said that it would cost $5,000 to replace the engine. I was shocked when I heard about it which then lead me to realize that I would not have a car at all. According to my mom, my uncle is going to look into the issue by getting in touch with a mechanic he trusts since my grandfather is under the impression that they weren’t being told the full story about the car.

With that, there is a very slim chance that my car might be saved, but I am going to have to be under the notion that it might not. As negative as it might sound, I think it might be best just to look for another car when the funds are right. What I drove was a white ’96 Oldsmobile Ciera, and I had it since Thanksgiving of 2009. I have done my best to take great care of my car, and it has served its purpose. I’ve even taken it on long road trips which its mileage was not far from reaching the 140,000 mile marker. The only down side about it was having the engine fixed two years ago which had cost $3,000 to fix it. Still, it’s just hard to accept that fact of not having a car.

True, it means that I can save more money without worrying about paying for gas and car insurance. However, a car to me meant that I could go places and just enjoy being on the road. I’m a sucker for going on trips as I do like to travel. My car was like my little bit of freedom in which I could go places as I please regardless of the responsibilities to take into account for it.

So I have no means of transportation outside of using the bus to get to and from work. And lately, our bus system has become our worst enemy in which that is a story for another time…

Anyway, that is all that I have to say about my car situation. It’s unfortunate that I won’t be able to go to many places as I had hoped . I would love to have gone to Daytona Beach again, but I’m glad to have gone the couple of times I drove out there. Just too bad I didn’t take any pictures of the area which would have included the race track for Nascar. ^^; Oh well.

I hope everyone is doing all right. I will try to manage with this setback somehow.

Thanks for reading, guys.

Disney World Update (04/28/14)

Hey howdy hey!

How has everyone been? For me, I’ve been all right for the most part with the exception of being tired constantly. I guess that’s what you get for being on your toes for extensive periods of times in a fast-paced environment. It’s not bad really; this is probably the working situation I needed. lol As for a sleep routine, I may as well come to the conclusion that it just may never happen. As much as I would like to get into the habit of one, I’ve found myself staying up later than I usually would and sleep in before I head in for work. ^^; I don’t mind it much, but there is a reason why I stay up late these days.

ROOMMATE SITUATION

For those that follow me on Twitter might know how I feel about the roommate I am currently living with. There have been a few things that kind of irk me about him. I have taken it upon myself to get the milk when needed, but at times it would be nice if he would get at least a gallon of milk for a change. What has really been grinding my gears is when he uses my TV as a second monitor for these light show projects he creates… And I don’t recall him asking my permission to use it! At some point I’m going to have to bring it up with him to get a second monitor for himself and have the TV strictly for video games and movies.

During the evenings, his fiancee (who is a part of the program) is over almost every evening. There have been some times where they have their little bickering, and it happens while I’m in the same room. Sure, I could get up and move to the bedroom, but it’s like they don’t acknowledge that I’m here and not take their problems elsewhere. Perhaps I’m letting that part get to me too much, but it just would be nice if they were more respectful in that regard when their bickering happens. I don’t know… I think what I really miss the most is having my personal space, and the evenings are a great time to have for myself when everyone is asleep. *heh*

Don’t get me wrong now. There are times where he’s cool to talk to. I just need to be a bit more firm with a few things.

ART

I’ve been drawing here and there. It seems like I’ve been more productive at drawing when I’m usually riding the bus to work. lol I recently made a dedication piece for my late grandfather, and I am quite happy in doing it. This piece was something I felt needed to be done to make myself a bit better. I still miss him as you all know I’ve said many times, but I’m doing better now.

I am slowly working on the many ideas that I have in my mind. They have been written down in my sketchbook with one page dedicated to an idea I want to draw out. What I need to really do is try to focus more on inking and coloring a few pieces that I’ve posted. Part of that is trying to set aside the time to actually do it. lol Of course that often falls through, and it’s really a matter of what I feel in the mood of doing.

Still, I hope to draw out those ideas. Some of them consist of proper reference sheets of my characters. True, I could always use the commissioned pieces I’ve received over the years as references, but I feel incomplete without having a reference sheet made by me for artist to go by. Plus, these reference sheets would show some of the particulars I have for my characters. :)

GAMES

I did finish Far Cry 3 recently. I found it to be a lot of fun as I explored the island looking for all the hidden relics and lost letters. The main story was fairly decent, but I came to realize that you are simply playing the game for the antagonist, Vaas, who was a pretty unique villain in the game. He’s one of the few video game villains to come and stand out from the rest. As for the game itself, I like how you are just able to explore like you would in Borderlands. The island it’s set on is so open that I wished I could live in a place like in Far Cry 3! That is without all the pirates you have to face of course. lol 

I managed to beat the game’s main story with a 100% completion rating. All that’s left to do is play through the co-op portion to get the remaining trophies I have. Once I do that, I’ll have another PS3 game with a platinum trophy to my username. :)

I can see where some people are put off with the main character going from a weakling to just full-out Rambo with a snap of a finger. And let me ask you this, how else would you be able to survive in a similar situation like what Jason Brody (the main character) had to go through? It may seem like a cheap gimmick to get the player going in the game, but I saw it as one being thrust into a nightmare that he must survive no matter what. At least that’s my argument to go against the naysayers of how the developers have the main character going about the game.

Recently, there was a flash sale via PSN, and I managed to pick up a few games at the time. The games happen to be Retro City Rampage, Braid, Tales from Monkey Island, Crash Commando (recommended by HartKnight and Usagi), Tokyo Jungle, and Super Stardust HD (much more satisfying shoot ‘em up over Geometry Wars). 

I even managed to get the Castle of Illusion Sega Genesis Bundle a few days ago. It included the Sega Genesis original, the remastered game, and a dynamic theme. After playing the original for a bit, I had long forgotten how challenging games back then were compared to the majority of today’s games. And from the little I’ve played of the remastered game, I can see how close they were to the original, and it’s not that bad of a thing really. It just depends on how well developed the game is. :) All in all, I hope to play both and finish them at some point.

MOVIES

I haven’t been watching that many movies like I used to, but there are a couple that I’ve seen I would like to mentioned. The first one being Indie Game: The Movie. The movie has been around for a couple of years now, and you can find it on Netflix. After seeing it, I found it to be quite inspiring with how these people have a strong passion for making games even though it is a very stressful process when it’s just between two guys. It was focused more on Team Meat and Phil Fish (mostly on this guy and his Fez game it seemed). Jonathon Blow is also in this movie, but he mostly shares what his philosophy on how he approaches when making a game. However, I found that Indie Game: The Movie focused mostly more on Phil Fish and his Fez game than the others. Still, it was interesting to see just how involved he was with his work.

Before this movie, I already had Super Meat Boy thanks to the many positive reviews the game received. After watching it, I now have Fez on my Steam wishlist along with the reason why I picked up Braid via PSN. It may seem odd of me to do this, but I kind of want to check out a few other indie games that people seem to rave over. lol Still, I will need to knock out a few other games before I move on to them.

Captain America: The Winter Soldier was the more recent movie I watched. As much as I enjoyed the first film, I have to say that this one was leaps and bounds better! Yes, it was a tad dark, but I didn’t mind that one bit as the story was so engaging. Although we do get to see the Winter Soldier, I would like to have seen more of him. Still, it shows that Marvel is going in the right direction with their comic book adaptations ever since Iron Man came out.

Overall, the movie had a nice balance between action and storytelling, and I highly recommend watching it. :)

CLOSING THOUGHTS

I think this is a good stopping point for my blog entry. It’s 4:31am as of typing this out, and I need to go to bed. ^^; I really am not looking forward to this shift I have coming up, but I will do what I can to survive it. I think I’ll be going to the beach with my sister this Wednesday and see Captain America again since it will be her first time to watch it. I look forward to it though. :)

Anyway, I hope you guys do your best to stay hydrated since the weather has been warming up quite a bit. I know I will be drinking plenty of water with these warm months to come. lol Other than that, I thank you all for taking the time in reading this. I hope everyone is doing well and know that I always appreciate your support. :)

Until next time!

Eddie the Wolf signing off!

Ismael Martinez (1930-2014)

Hello everyone.

I’ve been here and there these past two weeks. I know I’ve been very quiet for the most part, and there’s a good reason why I’ve been floating about. On March 20th, my grandfather from Puerto Rico passed away here in Florida. It has affected myself and my family greatly, but we are doing our best to heal with his passing.

A week before he passed he went to see the doctor because he wasn’t feeling well. Scans had shown that they found signs of pancreatic cancer. So he was admitted to a hospital and was given the okay for surgery. What the scans didn’t show was that it had spread into his liver, and he had lost a lot of blood during the surgery. On the day of his passing, my mom called me saying that it was urgent that both my sister and myself be at the hospital. The day before she had told me that my grandfather had flat lined twice, and I had a feeling then that he wasn’t going to make it.

After picking up my sister, I drove as fast as I could to the hospital. When we arrived, our aunt from my dad’s side and our cousin from my mom’s side were waiting on us. We made our way the intensive care unit where we saw our grandfather in one of the rooms. From then on, it was an emotional four hours. Our grandmother, his wife, was always next to him and never left his side. One of my uncles from my dad’s side was there along with my dad’s mom and so were my mom’s sisters. There were even a few occasions when friends of my grandfather showed up to watch him and say their good-byes. My dad and my other uncle weren’t able to be there though. For my uncle, he had work to do, and my dad left rather late and was caught in traffic going through Georgia on the way here. In a way, it was good that they weren’t there because I know both of them wouldn’t have been able to handle themselves well especially my uncle.

I know I could go on and on about what happened that day, but I’ll keep it as brief as possible. I just know that I’ll never forget the sounds of the machinery that tried to support my grandfather during his final hours nor will I forget being there when he left us. It was really hard to be there for his final hours. I don’t recall walking very slowly as though a huge weight has been put on me. When we left the building, it just seemed that everything around me hasn’t changed. All I could think was how can anyone be so normal. Don’t they realize that a great man has passed away? It was when I realized that life goes on, and there’s nothing you can do to change it. We all have a course we go through, and it’s the choices we make in our lifetime that defines who we are and those around us.

He was a great man, and there’s hardly anyone like him these days. He was an inspiration to many that have known him well including myself. He accomplished many things in his lifetime, and he went on peacefully. I was told that his big goal in life was to live to 100 years old. That is a very good goal if you ask me because you want to try to accomplish many things before you reach that age.

It’s been a very surreal feeling knowing that he’s not here anymore. So next time I see my relatives from Puerto Rico it will take some getting used to that fact. However, I know that he’s in a better place watching over us, and I’m thankful to have been a part of his life. He’s done so much for myself and my family that I am truly blessed to have had him as my grandfather.

I recently finished Far Cry 3, and there was a tune that played during the end credits that I found fitting with what I’ve been going through. It’s the main theme from the game, and this is how it goes.

To Ismael Martinez, you will be missed. I love you, Papito.

Disney World Update (03/05/14)

Hey howdy hey, folks!

It’s time for yet another update from the wolf! I hope you guys are trying to stay warm because the weather has been super nice here. ^^ The only drawback about it is I have been sick these past couple of weeks with this awful cold. I have been mostly coughing up phlegm to the point where I had lost my voice. It’s coming back though as I’m able to talk properly.

Anyway, I wanted to take the time to say that I am alive and well, and I’m loving my time here at Disney World! It has been a bit stressful for the most part, but I am making the most of it. The training portion was probably what stressed me out the most, but I made it through. And if anyone follows my Twitter feed, @SonicHomeboy, you’ll catch all the pics I’ve been posting including my work shoe saying the word “Andy” on it. =P So I am officially one of Andy’s toys at the Toy Story Midway Mania attraction. :)

When I’m not working, I’m either going to one of the parks or at the beach in Daytona. It’s nice going alone to the parks, but it’s kind of hard to not be able to share the magical moments with other friends. Yes, I have co-workers and I have a roommate, but it’s a bit difficult to plan anything with them. For one thing, schedules don’t really coincide well with the people that you’ve just met. And then my roommate has his fiancé which is almost like an invasion of space and privacy whenever she’s over, but I try not to pay much attention to it. I think that is what I am missing the most is my personal space. I’ve been out of staying in dorm rooms for so long that it is probably affecting me a bit. lol

Lately, it’s like when I try to reach out to a few people I want to talk to it seems that I am stepping on their toes without even realizing it. I don’t know why I keep feeling like this. I understand that some are busy with stuff, but it never hurts just to go “Hey, how are you? Hope things are well.” Generic, yes, but it’s been my way of trying to start up a conversation even for a few minutes. But even then I feel like maybe I’m just being socially awkward around them, and they don’t say anything until they probably snap out at me. It’s something I really should try not to worry about so much, but I think it’s not having close friends around that has been getting to me lately. As I said, it would be nice if I had my friends here to enjoy spending some time with me at the parks or at the beach. lol

Outside of Disney, I’ve been drawing a bit. I just need to sit down and color some of my stuff like I keep saying I should. lol I am going to start on sketching out character references seeing that my characters can really use decent references when commissioning others. As for gaming, I’m almost done with Far Cry 3, and I recently started on Bioshock on the PS3 via Bioshock Infinite. Even though I’ve played the latter on the PC, the recent news of Irrational Games shutting down inspired me to play it again. It’s quite weird getting used to the game’s controls compared to other FPSs I’ve played with similar control schemes. Still, it’s as good and as eerie as I remembered it on the PC. :) Once I get both games out of the way, I’m going to work on Shadow of Rome on the PS2 and attempt to actually finish Tales of Phantasia on the GBA. It’s time that I try to focus on finishing up games I know I’m close to finishing, and I’m getting tired of putting them off for a while now. What will I play after that? I’ll definitely start over on Final Fantasy VI and then get a start on Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes on the GameCube. :) We’ll see how this all turns out.

I think this is now a good time to wrap this journal up. All in all, I’m doing all right. I’m in a better working environment, but it would be nice to have close friends here to share it with. :) Still, I am going to make the most of my stay here at Disney World and do the best that I can by looking into a few jobs with the Company. *nods*

So how is everyone doing? Tell me what you guys are up to!

This is Eddie the Wolf signing off!

You Are Not Stupid

Hey all!

Once again, it’s been some time before I made any sort of update. I want to let everyone know that I am now in Florida for the start of the Disney College Program. In case you weren’t aware of it, here is a link to the journal announcing about it. :) It’s exciting yet nervous at the same time. I don’t know what to expect really. I know I’ll meet tons of new people, and I hope to get along with them well. All I care about is hitting the beach more often. XD And I hope to draw during my spare time. Of course, gaming will be done as well. =P

Anyway, the title may seem a bit odd coming from me, but there is a reason behind it. Recently, YouTuber Justin Carmical, aka JewWario, committed suicide due to depression. I have known plenty of people that have dealt with depression, and it’s never a pleasant experience to see someone suffer from it greatly. Around that same time, someone posted a video excerpt of JewWario from one of his recorded streams, and seeing it hit very close to home. It’s something that I’ve often thought of myself when feeling like dirt. I want to share this with you because I am sure I am not the only one that feels this way.

 

Seeing this for the first time almost made me cry. The mistakes I make from time-to-time, whether they be big or small, have made me feel like an idiot or worse. It doesn’t help that I dwell on it, and it affects how I go about the day. Seeing this video was comforting in many ways. Sometimes you have to stop and tell yourself that everything will be okay. I know I have had to do that many times, and it helps to have friends around to support you as best as they can.

I can safely say that I am blessed to have come across many wonderful people in my life, whether they be face-to-face or online. With that, I want to thank those that I’ve reached out to for advice when I had hit rock bottom between late November into New Year’s. You guys know who you are, and I’m forever grateful for it. :)

As I close this, I want you guys to know that you are not stupid. You guys do mean something, and you are capable of doing great things in your own way. Don’t let anyone or anything tell you otherwise.

Thank you all for reading this and have a blessed day and/or evening.

Eddie the Wolf signing off.